Time

Time is a funny thing, it goes so fast. Sometimes you wish it would go faster, other times you wish you could freeze it or add more hours to your day. I don't have enough hours in my day to get everything done that I want to. This past summer flew by. I can't wait to get out of the baby stage with Lyvi and hit the toddler age where she can communicate and be a little more independent. I also wish I could freeze time where the girls are, Ash turns 10 tomorrow and I can't figure out where it all went. I have been spending the past couple of weeks feeling like I am in a whirlwind. The girls went back to school and we have been trying to settle into a routine. Lyvi will put herself to sleep now in her crib, great for home not so great when we are out. The gymnastics and ballet schedules are set, I think. The daily routine has started but I am still trying to finish up summer projects. Last week I spent about three days going through totes, pulling out clothes, washing said clothes, and putting them away ...except Lyvi's they are still sitting on the chair. The shorts are gone replaced by jeans and Halloween costumes. The garage has been cleaned enough to get my Tahoe back in it, yay, but not done yet. I have made zucchini bread (with more to go) canned peaches, salsa, made jam, and am drying onions. Okay I haven't started the onions yet and the apples will be ready very soon. A couple of weeks ago I thought about how much I missed having a garden this year. After the past couple of weeks I realize Ky was right. There was no way we could have done a garden this year, and even though we didn't there is still plenty of produce to can/freeze and I can't seem to keep up. I have already started Christmas shopping, actually Ash is almost done. I have mentally begun planning a baptism, but I have to focus on the rest of the summer stuff we are trying to squeeze in. Ky and I had made a list of stuff to get done before he went back to school, lets just say we were way over ambitious. I think we finished maybe, maybe a fourth of it and that was the easiest portion....there is always something to do, I need more time. I am way behind on my blogging, I still have all the reunion stuff to post which is pretty much August, plus the fair, maybe it will get done soon. This is why when I went in for my doc appointment last Friday I felt so overwhelmed. I have been having problems again, it was a good thing I had a check up scheduled. So far I have managed to freak out 2 NP, 1 PA, 1 doc, and multiple nurses. I am now getting more attention than when I was pregnant, not good! Dr. E did an ultrasound and they sent me over to the hospital to have some blood drawn and x-rays taken. I was instructed to get over there ASAP so he could have the results that night, they were talking surgery again for Monday. I wanted to scream. I don't have time for surgery now let alone the recovery. Okay, so after multiple phone conversations with the doc this weekend, you know it is bad when you have his cell number and he has your number memorized! We are checking my crappy insurance to see what it will cover, should know today. Then we are going to decide on a plan he said he wants to do surgery "sooner rather than later". I am thinking I just want all this done and the laparoscopic hysterectomy is the best option. Ky said it is a good thing we got all our kids here. He also told me to stop scaring him, oh did I mention he started classes yesterday, surgery his first day of school isn't really an option. Anyway, after we see what the insurance will cover or won't we will go from there. There are 2 different drugs we can try, depending on the course of action. I would like to wait until after January to do surgery and hope Ky has his full time job with benefits, but then the doc said it might be considered pre-existing and won't be covered anyway. He has actually used the words dysfunctional and uterus in the same sentence. What a mess. Ky pointed out that I have been having problems for about a year now... really cause it does feel like it! I really just want to feel normal again and have all my energy back. I am actually excited about the surgery, not the recovery or the bill, but to be done with all this. I have loved giving my baby stuff away, at first it was kind of sad now its great! I love not having to find room for all of it.
Lyvi is awake and I need to call the insurance company, fun! I hope all this works out and I have a couple of months at least to finish some projects.
That is my update on our crazy life.